15-Year-Old Gay Teen Commits Suicide After Month of Blogging About Wanting To
The brutal combination of bullying, depression, and being born gay have claimed another life, we are sorry to report. 15-year-old gay teenager Jamie Hubley took his life on Friday after a month of blogging about his plans/need/fight not to.
His last post to his Tumblr blog was tagged suicide note and read:
Well, Im tired of life really. Its so hard, Im sorry, I cant take it anymore.
First Id like to mention my friends Nancy, Abby, Colleen, jemma, and Kasia
Being sad is sad : /. I’v been like this for way to long. I cant stand school, I cant stand earth, I cant stand society, I cant stand the scars on my arms, I cant fucking stand any fucking thing.
I dont want my parents to think this is their fault either… I love my mom and dad : ) Its just too hard. I dont want to wait 3 more years, this hurts too much. How do you even know It will get better? Its not.
I hit rock fucking bottom, fell through a crack, now im stuck.
My favorite singers were lady gaga , Adele , Katy perry, and Jessie james, Christina aguilara and most of all I think KASIA!!! I LOVED Singing, and she helped me a lot : ) Im not that good at it though :”/, Im going to miss you guys
(well You know who you are, But to the people who didnt like me (many) A big fuck you, Go ride a unicorn. But w/e I love you anyway.)
Remember me as a Unicorn :3 x) MAybe in my next life Il be a flying squirreel
Il fly away.
You can imagine that his last wish to be remembered as a unicorn fills me with a particularly personal anguish.
Jamie’s last month of blog post include numerous photos of his scars from self-cutting, quotes about how ugly and worthless he felt, and screenshots of victims contemplating suicide after being attacked by bullies. Lines like “I hate being the only open gay guy in my school … It f—ing sucks, I really want to end it,” aren’t the exception on Jamie’s blog. They’re the norm.
Jamie somehow went from posting YouTube covers of his favorite songs to posting pictures of the word “LOVE” carved into his flesh, and nobody seemed to notice.
“From the outside, he looked like the happiest kid. He was always smiling and giving everybody hugs in the halls,” said Steph Wheeler, a close friend who had known Jamie since the pair were in figure skating together as children a decade ago.
But Wheeler, 16, knew the sensitive Grade 10 student was struggling with being out in high school and often felt the sting of verbal bullying. She said all that Jamie wanted was what every teenager wants — somebody to love.
Somehow another gay teenager fell through the cracks even while screaming at the top of his lungs for help online nearly every single day for over a month. This should go without saying, but when someone tags a post “suicide note” – call for help. You can get involved simply by sharing the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline number, 1-800-273-TALK (8255), looking out for friends and loved ones and learning the warning signs for suicide.
And when someone tell you they are unicorn, you take care of them. No questions asked. We’re all in this together.
Rest in peace, Jamie. Our thoughts go out to your family, friends and loved ones.
(via Ottowa Citizen)